ehh... more time to kill

Cassie and I just pushed back our Lower East Side romp to 10 pm. More time to write!

I just uncovered the The Best of the Doors album on my laptop.

I don't know where it came from. Or how it got here.

But Spanish Caravan is pleasing me very much.

I just finished a fantastic book by Paulo Coelho entitled Brida. It was wonderful. I loved every word and was sad when it was finished. I learned so much from that story and now I want to explore the world more.  That story is where I learned that all roads lead to Rome, and I'm very grateful that I did because I'm now stepping more confidently as I journey on this road.

Currently, I'm reading Zen and the Art of Motorcyle Maintenance. I'm mostly reading it because other people loved it so much. I don't. I'm about halfway through and want to discard it.  I tell myself that once I finish it then I'll gain some sort of wisdom.  But I don't think I am. I'm learning philosophy and how to write a great philosophical argument/text but I have trouble with it.  I read because I want to gain a piece of the One Great Truth.  There's this thing that I'd like to refer to as the One Great Truth.  It's like... well... the best way I can describe it is that the OGT is like the ice cream truck.  It travels to all possible places it can and only gives a piece of knowledge so that we come back to it.  When I was little I would look for the ice cream truck, sometimes I would wait for it, and other times it would magically appear in my Grandma's neighborhood.  The ice cream truck was like this magical wandering being, never in one place for too long and it works on its own time.  That's how the OGT is.  We get the OGT anywhere: books, movies, plays, music, strangers, the grocery store, church, etc.  I find it best in books.  Sometimes I choose the right books and sometimes it finds its way to me.  Either way, God is bringing me a piece of the OGT.  Anyway, the OGT isn't just ONE INFINITE PIECE OF WISDOM. Nope, in my opinion it's a web of wisdoms that lead to... something. I just don't know what... umm... let's call it Rome.

Anyway, back to Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. The book is a pretty good read, but in the end it's just observational theory.  And in my opinion, that's not wisdom. Wisdom is something more... it's the application of knowledge to your life. It's a memory that you can look at in retrospect and know that you've learned something about life from the experience.  I learn a lot of great theory from Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, as I do with all philosophical texts that I read. But it feels pointless to ponder and argue these theories if I'm not gaining more from the OGT.  

Actually, when reading this, I feel like I'm learning how to be an elitist smartass instead of being Camille.

I enjoy being Camille, thank you very much.